Date: Tue, 18 Dec 2001 06:03:09 -0800

I got my plants in 67' Within a couple months I became allergic to make up. It made my face break out in bumps and rashes. Started getting hives when out in the sun about a year later. Then limping cause of sore knees. On one occasion my eyes turned yellowish.

Around 85' had to get allergy shots every week. After months the allergist told me she did not know how to regulate me. It was that serious. I had so many symptoms with the allergies they might fill a text book. They probably will someday.

At this time serious bouts of not being able to breath. One might say with tongue in cheek that I was disabled. Did not have the option to rest as I had two young children, and the usual duties of modern life. I never knew what would set off the asthma attacks. Dusty days. Things others could live with.

One time I remember clearly....I went outside only for a few moments and it was not terrible sunny or hot; hives and very itchy patches were all over my arms in only a few moments.

In order to sleep without waking up with very bad headaches I had to take antihistamines. This has improved. I do not have to take them as often now.

I remember it was several months later that I got very very bad migraines. Got my brain scanned. Nothing abnormal that I was told about was found. I thought it was my teeth cause i had been losing teeth. They were falling out. Nether of my parents had teeth as bad as mine. I ate a healthier diet and exercised more than both of them put together. I worked physically harder than either of them. They both died with most of their teeth. I have no teeth of my own.

I could go on and on. What's the point in dredging it all up.

So many operations to get the silicone out. Two times stitches did not hold in my body after operations into my abdomen. I never had trouble with connective tissue disease until after the implants. No one in my family had or has connective tissue disease, cept me. No one in my family had allergies cept minor stuff.

All those years passing, and the knees and limping got gradually worse. Back pains. Neck pains.

The right foot started hurting and developed a big bump on top. Now the left foot is going. Sharp jabbing pains in hips neck sometimes feet knees. Nausea, cramps. Very thin hair and falling out faster than it is growing. Increasing pain in spleen area,(I used to think these were heart attacks.) They may be, but from the little I know it is more likely the spleen. Nerve pain in arms hands even chest area. Real numb sometimes, infrequent burning searing tearing pain in arms hands. Infrequent muscle cramps that leave the muscles sore.

Ended up in emergency rooms 4x's with what one opthamologest called strange looking crystal like leasons on my eyes.

I sometimes stay awake for days. Not 24 or 48 hours, more than that. Simply cannot sleep. I know from experience that no amount of drugs can knock me out. So I stay awake and read and take very hot baths. I sometimes sleep for a long time. This goes in cycles. They are not regular.

I try taking vitamins. I can take these for weeks then the tummy acts up. Nausea.

I have been diagnosed incorrectly, insulted, and manipulated by so many so called physicians so often that I cringe at the very thought of anyone claiming to heal.

I stopped getting tested. What is the point most tests are as dangerous as the disease.

One famous silicone p/s evaded my questions and by omission lied to me about her own silicone problems and (so called) saline non problems. Major manipulation.

One famous silicone doctor recently tossed me a curved ball. He told me to get a PCP physician over the phone. Again in his office. He also told me that the connective tissue disease I have was cause I am double jointed. He does not have all my records and he has forgotten how hard it is for silicone women to get good care. That is the only excuse I can give him. He was training a new in turn.

I have never before written down so much about myself and the silicone experience. I am almost shaking with anger this moment from dredging only some of it up.

As long as I can choke down vitamins, and sip herbs I will survive.

I am happy to say that I do not need a lot of drugs yet.

The years of illness and coping have made me into a warrior.

I still love people and animals and all is well with me.

Take care women warriors.........be well.........stay strong

Suz